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I read the New York Times article, “Single, Female, Mormon, Alone.” weeks after its January 7 publication. It seems all the juicy stories are in the Times. I should switch from reading the Washington Post. This isn’t the first article of its kind the Times has published in its Modern Love section where people who were formerly practicing Latter-day Saints (Mormons) chose to leave the Church and specifically talk about their sexual journeys.

Reserving sexual relations for the bonds of marriage isn’t a new idea, but it seems fashionable these days to treat it as if it’s out of date. Narrating the throwing off  of these perceived as antiquated constraints is a good way to boost one’s notoriety in a society that values sex above everything else. Nicole Hardy received $300 from the Times, but now she has a book deal and an agent to help her field further requests.

I previously posted about Mormons and Sex: Living the Law of Chastity and I’m not exactly going to now add to the many online reactions. My favorite response is found on the Mormon blog Times & Seasons by Chris J. I appreciate its candor and acknowledgement of the personal challenge with still siding on the line of obedience to God’s commandment.  The Law of Chastity is, afterall, a commandment from God, which is why we live the standard.  Part of my purpose in creating this blog is to add a voice to this kind of discussion that reflects a worldview of faith because I’ve never seen it represented in the mainstream discussions.  “Mormon Girl Not Having Sex” isn’t the kind of headline that the Times wants to publish.  These articles treat religion as if it came from the mind of man only, not from God. Much of the administration does come from the mind of man, in my opinion, but doctrine such as commandments come from God. It’s still sin to disobey them, whether you view the message as from an ultra-conservative for the times religious organization or not.

Entitled?

So I’m not going to here talk about the Mormon view of sexuality.  This isn’t because I consider it a taboo subject. Tonight I am going to a study group with some Latter-day Saint (Mormon) twenty somethings discussing homosexuality. I am going to write my own sense of disillusionment and entitlement that I was reminded of in reading our controversial author’s article.

Last year or so, I’m not exactly sure of the timing I could go through journals to figure out for sure, I realized I had a sense of entitlement with regards to my reception of the blessing of marriage.  I think this came from how chastity is taught in the Church to the youth. I’m not blaming my youth leaders. There comes a time in life as an adult when you just can’t blame those who did the best they could for you. However, I am willing to acknowledge the affect and then take responsibility in my own life.

It’s hard being a teenager, period. And it’s hard being a teenager in a sex-obsessed world when you want to take the higher road. It’s hard when what seems acceptable and normal by everyone around you is actually a grievous offense to God and it’s hard when your peers are doing things so far beyond what you’re doing that it makes what you’re doing seem okay, even if it still offends God.

This is what parents and youth leaders are working with. They teach the Law of Chastity with a marriage and family focus. You don’t create sexual experiences with someone in your youth because it detracts from the relationship with your future spouse. If you live to keep yourself clean, one day you’ll find someone who has similarly lived and you’ll get married.  You wait while you’re dating, so it’s more meaningful when you’re married. An oft quoted scripture in teaching the Law of Chastity in the Church is from an ancient American prophet’s teachings to his son, “…bridle all your passions, that ye may be filled with love…” (Alma 38:12).

All this is true, but it created in me a sense of entitlement. In the youth scripture study program, we have a list of scriptures we are encouraged to memorize and I was really good at this short one, “I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise” (Doctrine & Covenants 82:10).  I somehow equated that keeping the Law of Chastity came with the promise of a spouse one day. If I obediently bridled my passions, I would be filled with love for a spouse in the future. He’s promised. At least that was my impression with all this talk of marriage and the Law of Chastity in relation to family.

He owes me. I do something for Him, which is hard, then He does something for me, which is easy for Him.

God Doesn’t Owe Me Anything, I Owe Him Everything

If I were in charge of the Church, which I won’t ever be, I would shift the focus of how the Law of Chastity is taught.  The marriage and family focus is a true result of living this Law, but that’s not why we do it. We do it because the Savior has done for us what we couldn’t do for ourselves, EVER. We do it because we love Him and if we love Him, we keep His commandments (John 14:15). I wrote about this concept in this post Mormons and Sex: Living the Law of Chastity.

We keep the Law of Chastity because God first gave us breath and then lends it to us daily (2 Nephi 9:26)(Mosiah 2:21).

King Benjamin, an ancient American prophet, taught how we are always indebted to God. He owes us nothing:

“And now, in the first place, he hath created you, and granted unto you your lives, for which ye are indebted until him…if ye do [keep His commandments] He doth immediately bless you; and therefore he hath paid you. And ye are still indebted unto him, and are, and will be, forever and ever; therefore, of what have ye to boast?” (Mosiah 2:23-24).

When teaching the very Law of Chastity we’re discussing, Paul taught of Christ:

Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost, which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s (1 Corinthians 6:18-20).

Somehow it was the expectation in my head that by keeping the Law of Chastity, it meant God owed me. And in my mind, He owed me a hot spouse that met all my list I created in some Sunday School lesson as a 15 year old (Why do we do that? If I were in charge of the Church, I’d instruct that to discontinue and be taught differently, but that’s a post for another day).

Somehow Nicole Hardy missed the point of keeping the Law of Chastity. It should have been an expression of her love for Jesus Christ for taking upon Him all her sin that she has the opportunity to repent and be free from those sins.  Now I resent her that she so purposefully sinned and the Savior received the stain of it and her guilt, whether she takes advantage of it or not.

God doesn’t owe me anything. He never did and I repented of such a sense of entitlement, which was possible only because of Jesus Christ. I was disillusioned for a time when I didn’t get married when all my closest friends were, but it was only because I needed to change myself, not because God’s Laws should be changed or because they weren’t true.

God doesn’t owe me anything, I owe Him everything. The second He created me, the second Christ Atoned for me, I became forever indebted to Him. I’m committed to consistently renewing my allegiance to Him and living His commandments whether I receive the sweet blessing of marriage or not.

Entitled much?  Not anymore because Christ gives me the chance to change and start afresh. I have peace, which is actually what He promises. He does keep His promises. I can recognize that now.

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We had a fabulous Relief Society meeting last weekend.

Relief Society is the women’s organization in the Church. During the third hour of the Sunday services, the men and women split into their own classes, but we study the same lessons. I’ve heard that the men in the singles congregation I attend are more insightful in their class contributions during this hour than when they’re combined with the women in the preceding Sunday School hour. Who wants to know they’re insightful?

They should definitely keep that a secret.:)

If you ask me, which you didn’t and no one did, I think that this third hour should be eliminated all together. If I were in charge of the Church, which I won’t ever be, I’d organize it only to have the Sacrament (Communion) portion where everyone is combined and then a Sunday School hour where people are divided by age groups.

Then we’d go home and spend time keeping the Sabbath Day holy in ways that we choose.

I would still have the women organized by visiting teachers as they are. This means that two women at least once a month visit one particular woman outside of the Church hours and act as go-to girls for personal spiritual and physical needs. About once a month, we also have additional Relief Society meetings outside of Church services where we develop skills and provide service. This used to be called “Home, Family and Personal Enrichment” and prior to that it was called, “Homemaking.” During the Homemaking years, they made lots of crafts, at least this is all I remember my Mom ever doing when I was a kid. They were always cheap and a little hokey. I’m so glad we’ve made progress in this area now that I’m a woman in Relief Society. So our most recent outside of Church services Relief Society meeting was fabulous.

We learned about budgeting from a certified public accountant who keeps the federal government honest, we learned about grief and loss from a counselor who works with people in gang plagued neighborhoods and we learned about nutrition and health from a woman who competes in body sculpting competitions. I love Washington, D.C.. The diversity of talents in the Church never ceases to impress me and all the above are filled with faith in the Savior.

Danielle, the body sculpting girl, taught us that “abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym.” Who knew? Definitely not me. “The way you look and feel,” she said, “is 80% nutrition, 10% training and 10% genes.” She said you can’t eat ice cream and then work out and expect to burn it off because it doesn’t work that way. I was a little disillusioned because that’s how I’ve managed my own health and fitness since, uh, I was managing my own health and fitness, but life is all about new beginnings, right? Since I still want to be hiking mountains when I’m an old lady, I’m paying attention to what she’s saying. After describing the consequences of consuming sugar, she told us how to look for it. She said that if one of the first 5 ingredients on the nutrition label is sugar, we shouldn’t be eating it. She also told us that yogurt usually has added sugar and instant oatmeal is terrible for you.

I looked at the label of my Special K Berries that I eat almost every morning and its third ingredient was sugar. So I looked at the non-berries added Special K, same story. Betrayal!  I’m a victim of false advertising! I was also eating yogurt almost daily and instant oatmeal on the mornings I wasn’t eating Special K Berries.

I switched!

Now I’m eating sugarless vanilla yogurt with added real fruit and the old fashioned oatmeal with added honey. Mmmmm. Deeelisshus.

Thanks Danielle! I still can’t find my abs in my kitchen anywhere, but I’m glad I’m taking better care of myself.

You can access the handout from Danielle’s presentation here.  Trust me, she knows what she’s talking about.  She’s a trophy winner in those body sculpting competitions.

Now, if only I didn’t eat those Starbursts on campus this week. But they are so good.:(

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